Part H of the April A-Z Blogging Challenge, where every day this month except Sundays, I'll be talking about things I love - one thing for each letter of the alphabet.
There's a lot of things that I try to be. Ever since I first heard anyone say "just be yourself", I've been intrigued by that idea. I'm not sure it's possible to just "be yourself". Every moment, we make choices about how to act, respond and interact with others. I believe some things can come more naturally than others, but I also believe that you can choose a trait or persona and say "I'm going to be that".
However, one thing I haven't had to put effort into since my youngest days was being happy. Someone once described me as being "full of positive energy" and I liked that. I think there's very few people that have seen me in any other state. I try and make everyone happy, which a lot of people will try to say is impossible, but for me that's no reason not to try. It just comes naturally to me, so it's not like I'm spreading myself too thin.
Now, while I like the idea that I'm a predominantly happy person, I'm always very careful not to force it. I've come across people who think it's bad to be anything but happy. They have the view that being sad is either unhealthy, counter-productive or just a state of mind that you can train yourself to never visit. I'm of the opposite opinion. I think that trying to train yourself out of any negative emotion is unhealthy. If I'm sad, I wallow around in the sadness for a while. If I'm angry, I let the anger boil until it runs out of energy. I find that to be far healthier. It allows me to look at myself in any given situation and think "What am I really feeling? Why do I feel this way?" It really helps me to learn about human interaction.
But like I said, whenever I'm around people, my natural state just seems to be happiness. I really like that. Being in a happy state allows me to do many other things I enjoy - explore, have fun, take risks, challenge my comfort zone... Put it this way - if the aim in life is to constantly grow and evolve, negative emotions (sadness, anger, fear) serve to tell you that something needs fixing before you can keep growing. It could be any of a countless number of things, but they need to be addressed. Positive emotions (happiness, excitement, love) are there to tell you that right now, things are okay. Now it's time to take the next step and keep growing.